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ogay heres that post ive been talking about.

in life, there are four certainties. birth, death, love and heartbreak. birth occurs when someone close to you or even you yourself gives birth to a new person. from the moment of conception, you can watch as this infant grows to adulthood, taking on characteristics unique to him/her alone, obtaining a personality which is easily distinguishable from everyone else. this is birth, and it teaches us the LIVING aspect of life. that is, how vital each and everyone of us are to life as a whole.

death occurs when someone close to you, be it friend or family, passes away. this is, similar to above mentioned birth, inevitable in all senses of the word. sooner or later, we will have to mourn the death of a friend whom weve invested love and companionship in. if it happens to be a family member, especially a close one, its even more painful as he/she has been there to experience YOUR birth and/or growing up.

heartbreak. self explanatory really. all that crap about marrying your first love is exactly that: utter bullshit. its impossible to actually spend the rest of your life together with the first person you ever loved. well ok, maybe if you two manage to reconcile after some years and decide to give it another shot or something then alright fine, that HAS happened before. but thats entirely different from what im talking about, as you well know. IM discussing how heartbreak is just like female pattern baldness on tze shun: unavoidable. see, in order to have a lasting relationship, like a marriage which survives the ravages of time, two partners MUST have had some sort of experience beforehand. to begin your first ever relationship(or even the second or third) with someone you intend to spend the rest of your life with, or at least the majority of it, is ridiculous. the mere fact that you have little(or no) understanding of the inner workings of a pairing, the subtleties, the mechanics, the KNOWLEDGE is enough to end a relationship before it even begins. thus, heartbreak is a thoroughly necessary procedure in life.

finally, that which ive been meaning to make the focal point of this whooooollleeeee post: love. you all know me, im about the love. the roses, the poems, the songs, the sweet stuff. thats my forte me duckies! and i really think that love is a huge part of life, one of its most important unmissables. three types really: friendly, parental and romantic.

parental is the unconditional love your parents have for you. think about it this way: no matter how much they irritate you or piss you off, they will always be the ones to turn to when your in trouble. well, at least until you move outta the house anyway. this arises from being someone theyve raised since birth, developing an overpowering instinct which guides them to care and take care of you no matter how old you are. lets use some imagery shall we! lets imagine youve just been caught doing some fucked up shit by the police. lets say....... you thought youd be funny and limp around on your left leg, hunched over and sporting a ji jersey. in lockdown, first instinct is "fuck my parents are gonna kill me" or "fuck need to call them and tell them what happened". this is a response, however reluctant, to the responsibility of us as kids and making sure that their love is the first thing on our minds whenever we desperately need something like it. and if wer lucky, maybe one day we can afford to GIVE that love to our OWN children.

friendly love is associated only with the people you are ultra close to. they are usually a) the ones you can open up to about ANYTHING and b) friends who you can claim to be your best buddies when others enquire about them. i dunno, but for me, i find the most heart warming thing that can happen is if someone asked, for example, jaesh "eh do you know whos han loong" and he replies "yeah hes my bro". THAT kinda thing makes me nod vigorously and believe that friendships like the one i have with my brother from another mother is going strong and lovely.

lastly, romantic love. AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH my forte. : ) in life, i really really really believe that EVERYONE experiences romantic love. it doesnt matter whether you get married, die single or father thousands of illegitimate bastard children( : D ), i am confident that as long as you just be who you are(except if your a grade a asshole, then wise up buddy) and follow what you think is right, you are certain to fall in love. its a guarantee! see, there are millions of definitions for love. but above all, its a combination of every other feeling and emotion that exists. because its only through the endurance of hate, pettiness and sadness mixed with the enjoyment of lust, happiness and trust that love springs forth. anything but such a vibrant cocktail can hardly be called love, because theres so much yet to go through before two people realise they are meant for each other. and as long as youve loved someone, truly LOVED someone with all your heart... well, then it implies that youve gone through a huge bit of life with that person already no?

in conclusion, thank you wei ting for introducing me to alluc.net and making this post a whole lot shorter than what i had planned. now im going to go enjoy some borat. till next time me lovelies, dont be retardation!!!

Third Eye Blind's New Girl

I want a new girl
Who can show me how to have a good time
And get closer to my life's design
In the darkness
Candle light across my face
I feel myself fall into grace and...

She puts on eye shadow
A deeper shade, a deeper shade of blue
And then she gets in bed with you