good morning reasons why i drink

demons on high visited me once more last night. instead of crashing like a drunk driver on a rainy night, i actually lay awake for a pretty long time. thinking over everything thats come my way so far(and to a lesser extent, my friends' similar stumbling blocks) and all thats still looming on the horizon... i took what an hour to finally slip into very very troubled sleep.

wow the dreams. the dreams dreams dreams. i wont say NIGHTMARES because they werent terrifying in the least. they were just downright disturbing. for example... ok this may sound really really off. but i dreamt that a certain girl from my class(i wont mention any names for decenys sake... but if i did jaws would drop, thats for damn sure.) was sitting at this table with me samuel and xiang un. now this in itself isnt too strange... BUT she was "with" xiang un. like they were very close to each other and talking and giggling. plus, she had her head on his meaty arm.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

okok but this wasnt the best(?) part!! getting up from the table, i proceeded to walk to my room(which was just next door... go figure.). lo and behold SHE followed me in. and took off her shirt! AND PANTS!!!

i can sense all of you yearning to know what happened next.

















































































































so this was looking up right? like a... weird wet dream? but oh no... cause she was hairy. like fucking fucking fucking hairy. hairier than mei ting hairy. see how bad it was. and it wasnt LOCALISED hair. it was like david hasselhoff hair. on the thighs on the stomach on the arms... ON THE FACE. EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

this was about the time i jolted up. it was so messed up i tell you i woke with a cold sweat. i sat in bed completely awake and breathing hard, my tousled hair in my eyes and shivering all over. i got the feeling you get just when you dodge a bullet. i dont wanna think what might have happened if i didnt forcefully kick myself(figuratively) awake from that awful awful dream. SWEAT, NOISY, HAIRY DIZZGUUUZZDDDINNNNNGGG SHIT COULDVE GONE DOWN.

i got goosebumps.

nasty stuff. thus, getting back to sleep was made even more difficult because i was afraid what i would glimpse should i find myself in the remnants of that dream. that happens sometimes, especially if you knock out thinking about it over and over. lucky for me though, this wasnt the case.

i dreamt about an ex girlfriend next. see, me and a few others were outside a club dressed in our absolute finest when i see my ex waving to me and saying "hi han!". i nodded back hello and continued chatting with my buddies when she waves BOTH her hands in my direction and goes "HAN DONT YOU MISS ME?".

at this point of time i could do nothing but stare at her slack jawed. with "wtfs" running through my mind, i slowly shook my head. but still she wouldnt get the hint. she took out her cell phone and showed the screen to me saying how she kept all the sweet messages i sent her. yeah. this obsessive crap went on for QUITE a while. until i awoke actually. its strange when you get up in the morning feeling very very confused and wondering what the hell your subconscious is up to.

hmm. maybe i should see a shrink. ah fuck it. ill see what happens tonight. maybe this freaky stuff isnt worth paying too much attention too. if it recurs, then ok ill put more thought into it. i mean, for all i know the ex could still be crazy about me(quite understandable, admittedly. i mean cmon... im a stud damnnit. : D HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAAHAHAHHAAHAHAHA) and God is subtly trying to let me know. ah well. time for DOTA!!!

The Cranberries' Dreams

All my life
Is changing everyday
In every possible way
And all my dreams
It's never quite as it seems
Never quite as it seems
I know I've felt like this before
But now I'm feeling it even more
Because it came from you
And then I open up and see
The person falling here is me
A different way to be