God, this ones for you

i know almost every time i go to You in prayer, its either because i need something. whether it be help, advice, guidance... it seems that no matter when or where i talk to You, im asking for something. i dont think thats how a relationship with You should be. its not because of the guilt i feel that im writing this, but because of how much i appreciate everything that You have done for me in my life.

thank you for my friends, whom i love with all my heart. without them, i wouldnt have someone to call at night when im lonely, i wouldnt have people to laugh and smile with. they make my day when everything else seems broken.

thank you for my family. there are occasions when i argue with them, but its the very fact that we can make up and go back to normal so fast which proves that they love me very much and i them. i rely on them for everything and anything.

thank you for nus business. its something to look forward to after army, and i know im very fortunate to get such a course. many people have vied for it and i managed to secure it, i believe it was your guiding hand behind me that day in the interview room which pushed me through. by reading a book written with you in the backdrop, i struck up a conversation which i couldnt have done otherwise.

thank you for a good life so far. i dont lack anything in the extreme, i am happy and safe. the good times i have seem vast in comparison to the times when im down, the smiles definitely outweighing the frowns.

Lord... there are so many things that i can do wrong, so many things that i fumble with and get confused over. but i always know that Your behind me all the way, watching and waiting to step in at the right moment to make everything better again. its been Your will that makes me who i am today. and although im not perfect... i know im perfect in Your eyes. and thats enough for me.

please keep everyone safe so the good times continue. all things i place in Your hands, because whenever it seems one of us begin to fall, You are right there to catch him/her. all this i pray in Jesus' name, Amen.

Switchfoot's You

I find peace when I'm confused
I find hope when I'm let down
Not in me
Me
In you
It's in you

I hope to lose myself for good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me
Me
In you
In you