the rift is making me cry!!!

cause slash is just that damn good.

my dad can be quite a big hypocrite without realising it.

take for example dinner. he came home at eight fifty and asked me to have dinner with him. so late of course i eat already right??? but he say accompany him talk to him. so ok i go. i mean can spend 15 20 min sitting there and chatting right no big deal. not as if so boring or lame im going to lose all my hair and start internal bleeding by listening to my father talk to me.

i would never actually really find out though.

because he spent the whole 20 min talking to my mother and ignoring me. completely. i just sat there and ate some mashed potatoes wondering why i was being hammered by an overwhelming sense of deja vu. then it hit me, this has happened many times before!!! they talk about their companies and i try to pay attention but its so boring and hard to relate to, i give up after a while. its not that im purposely being ignorant just to spite anybody. its just that when you ask someone specifically to join you for a conversation at least try to include them on some common grounds like oh you know the who died today north korea fucked up etc. etc. you dont just exclude them.

but nm, nm! i sit there like a good boy! diam diam eat some duck and think about whether the duck was a white or yellow colored duck before they made it into an appetiser duck with some duck plum sauce. as long as not swan can already.

then my mom said "ay why u ignore your son completely. include him in the conversation lah!"

my father reply "oh. sorry. so basically what happened was my company put an ad in the Stra-"

"ok thanks for dinner i gtg now i think someones calling my handphone."

zao back to my room play v6.60. batrider ftw.

"there are certain people, you just keep coming back to"

Yup. to be honest im not exactly an angel myself.

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AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHALOLHESAIDROFLLMAOWTF

Nuff of that. anyway.

Not one to point fingers and overlook my own flaws, im very guilty myself of being a hypocrite. as xin wei and jerome would know after last night. we told each other stuff and made some unanimous decisions. and we all agreed i was being a sohai, but unintentionally so and i have some serious shit to work out. deja vu once more. good thing ill have all the time in the world cause IM MOUNTING TOMORROW FOR ANOTHER SEVEN DAYS WOOHOO!

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Ignoring the unrestrained glee... whatver lah ah. aaron promised hed help distract me about stuff while wer inside so i hope itll be ok. i mean it HAS to turn out fine... right?...

p.s. i wish i wasnt on the sidelines anymore

The Strokes' Heart In A Box

Help me, I'm just not quite myself
Look around there's no one else left
I went to the concert and I fought through the crowd
Guess I got too excited when I thought you were around