Monday, June 8, 2009

cant let myself out

nothing to do now.

2 days off make for a friggin long weekend.

not that im complaining.

its just that im bored.

thinking i have so long more to go before i ord.

then i think of kiat.

who ords in 2011.

and i feel a bit better.

but still

even though i had fun at butter factory on sat

i know that scratching below the surface

begging to get out and claw the fucking faces off everyone

is a selfish, ill-conceived piece of monster

that everyone is insistent on not uncovering and killing

before it tears through all our skins

and thrashes through everyone.

tomorrow night at my place better produce some results

and they had better be tangible

or i think its going to hit the ceiling fan

and explode in our faces.

Nirvana's Heart Shaped Box

Cut myself on angel's hair and baby's breath